Love, PT1

Passion, caring, adoring, sex, satisfaction or we can just say love. What is love? Is there a specific definition for love? I believe not, love is something no one can explain. In fact, love is indefinable, because we all have our definition for love, and we can’t judge the meaning that others give to the world love. I consider love a waste of time. It’s hard to find and hard to hold. Am sure when I reach the age of 30, I’ll know exactly what love means and what it takes to deserve it. But right now, am too young to fall in love. It’s freedom, how can I fall in love if I still feel that I am not yet. Love also means responsibility. I can only imagine what love is, as I haven’t been in love. Am talking about love between man and woman, not other kind of love. Everyone has experienced some kind of love, best friend, parent or pet. I want to be sure of my love for a woman. I want to love my neighbors before her, my brother’s wife or my sister’s husband before her, or even my cat before her. Only then, I can be ready for her. Although, I like having a girlfriend, I prefer to be alone or with my friends than being on a date with a beautiful girl. It doesn’t mean I will always feel this way, it just means that I don’t think that I’m ready for love. I’m having a good time with her and I don’t want her to be away from me. I love her smile, her hair and her lips. Am I in love with her?